My issues

Hi Again

Hi All,

This is me again. I mentioned I'd try to step back, and rest more. I have a little bit, but it is so hard to stay away from here. Anyways to my point.

One of the issues I've been facing, and didn't realize until after I came home. I've had some numbness. Well I should say almost like a combination of your foot/leg falling asleep with pain, and slight it seems paralysis. That is on the right leg. The paralysis issue isn't bad, and should clear up, but I am a sleptic. It only involves a few toes. I can move them up, and down. yet I can't in any other way, and I coulod take my toes twist them on top of another etc. Hey for a slightly overwieght guy. I am pretty flexible. I wasn't too worried yet until the last few days. I have felt soemthing in my back shifting, and I seem to later in the day get a burning sensation in my lower back more towards the right side. Then almost immediatly afterwards. My left leg the whole leg starts to go to sleep.

With the right leg tho' I can use it, but if I take a big step, and put it down. It is almost like it isn't there. So that does have me worried. My best friend here in life. He is always telling me I am going to be a cripple, and noit walking using a wheelchair by 40. Dammit that is too close. With my issues I could really see that happening, but...It is still shiutty to hear someone say that almost everyday. Well that is ti for now. I hope your all well...Ns

Hi there my friend in pain First off,i'ts good to hear that you're still "kicking"and alive..BUT you have to start to sloooooooooow down..you had a BIG surgery down not even two month ago,really,what are you expecting..bonegrafts,cage,removed old disc?..scar tissue from two surgerys,and the list goes on..I've told you before and as a friend telling you again,SLOOOOOOW down...REHAB...maybe try to cut some weight...BAYBYSTEPPING..do you hear me my friend

A big surgery like you've just had take atleast 6 month to 16 month to heal 100%,that is is you take care about yourself..if you try to hard it can set you back...for life like your best buddy keeps on saying to you..Please,please take this time in life to slow down and maybe take a hard look in your lifes backmirror,contemplate...STOP___THINK___ACT...One day at a time..enyoy life to the fullest..AT WERE YOU ARE RIGHT NOW...take a deeeeeeeeep breath..exhale...relax...

I've been there remember,i'm still there due to beeing to stubborn,not listening and so on...i read you brother like a open book believe me..

Okey that's it from the self appointed spine specialisttake care..love coming your way brother...

Pain Issues

Hi! Noshow... Sorry to hear about your pain descriptions your having, and I hope you find solutions that will benefit for the long term. I would say that the numbness on the Right leg is a result of either Spinal Stenosis, Neuropathy or the Pereneal Nerve? If your having difficulty on your RT side picking the toe up is a sign of these Dx's above. Raise the bottom of your Right shoe if you are short on that side to help with swing phase ambulating. Have someone professional check your height at the ASIS, or Inferior Scapula' to se if you are level. Remember the Scapula at the bottom of each, on the back are level to one another, looking at them straight on, and if not you will see the difference's in height with the eyes. This would be a fair guess without examining you from the details listed. Sincerely, resinbud,

Thank you

Hi BLB,

Hope your well, and thank you for your kindness. I guess sometimes I just expect it to go to quickly. You want to do what you did before, and don't want to wait to do it. Stubborn...Hehehe Ummm I've never been called that one. Well not in the last ten minutes...lol Hope all is well. I will pm you in a bit then go rest.

Greybeard,

No offense taken. We are friends, and all. Yet sometimes I feel like were not. Even if I turned out that way. It is still crappy to hear someone say that alot. Quite alot to be honest. As for pain. I believe that I will have some type until the end of my life. I have accepted that. How do I deal with it? How much can I relieve it to me are the main questions. Can I get it to a bearable point? These are the main things I forsee. I am greatful to have met you, and to be able to call you friend...peace GB...NS

Hey RB,

I will keep what you said in my mind. I actually reading this am able to get a couple more questions to ask my DR in regards to my issues. He is good at answearing what I ask. One of the DR's I feel actually cares about what they do, and the poeple. I have a few pm's to get to, and then rest. It is funny how I am. If I don't take a nap midday. I am toasted the next day. Feel bad etc...Okay I will go now...ns



One thing that scares me is this. With the bad DD issues I have. Even the way the DR was when I quizzed him about them. Made me feel like surgery was again a very real possibility. The issue with me lies here. With the degenerative disc issues. I literally have two disc not affected. TWO...The others are in a heavy moderate to severe degeneration/dessication. Whatever you wish to call it. The rest od the disc. Well to be blunt are kind of fekked. So if I go to work, or do something wrong. In regards to my back. I'm likely going to see the surgeon again. My current job is not hard, but there is heavy lifting, walking alot, and more involved. Those I'd think are the worst part of it. Well then my BOSS...lol Asshat he is. I couldn't do my previous job if I can't do my current one. I would never pass the physical now. So what is left guy's, and gals? Is it disability? If I have to I have to, BUT...I don't want to. I would to protect my family. The money ok would help, but I am more worried about medical bills piling up. As far as disability. I would rather not be a burden on the system, and I can't stand the thought of staying home all the time. Laziness etc...

Well for now I will go, and thanks friend for the help..Ns

SHIT

...and not mns SHIT.

I feel like SHIT today. I really started feeling off last night. I think I just over did it with being physical. I woke up almost two hours late today. Just feel like SHIT. Having limited mobility, and a host of other issues that seem to be comming on quite strong right now. It is taking me sometime to get this wrote out.

I am not on terribly strong doses of meds, but I seem to be hallucinating a tad. Anyone with experience in narcotic meds experience this. Remember I've been on them for say nine months now. I think it best to leave, and rest if I can. My thoughts are really feeling jumbled, and I wish to not say something I may regret. Thank you friends...Ns

WTF

Sorry for the tone to start off with, but WTF is going on now. It is odd. I am not feeling that great. As you know I've had a second surgery, and recovering slowly. Yet besides the issues that come with that. WTF is meant for the last two days. I have felt like complete crap. Waking up late. Say 2/3 hours later. Wake up feeling like I got completly trashed the night before. I don't drink, and have no herb at the moment. So what is the deal? Anyone? I am thinking I will talk to JKP. I know he has had some issues like this. If there are any ideas. Let me know please...Ns

noshow said:

Sorry for the tone to start off with, but WTF is going on now. It is odd. I am not feeling that great. As you know I've had a second surgery, and recovering slowly. Yet besides the issues that come with that. WTF is meant for the last two days. I have felt like complete crap. Waking up late. Say 2/3 hours later. Wake up feeling like I got completly trashed the night before. I don't drink, and have no herb at the moment. So what is the deal? Anyone? I am thinking I will talk to JKP. I know he has had some issues like this. If there are any ideas. Let me know please...Ns

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I call it:Someone is knocking on your door and want you to listen "in"..Maybe the "knock"is telling you many things but you're to busy NOT to listen..tune in my friend..listen..relax...say something like this:Welcome pain to my body,i don't like you at all but i know that you have to visit me,so welcome in to my body make yourself at home BUT please can i ask you not to stay too long..okey my "pain friend".
What this does for ME is that it take the stigma from the pain away,it help me to tackle my friend The Pain alittle bit better...Instead of trying to FIGHT him away which takes alot of power from you, and that power you will need to recover from your big surgery and rehab work..It works for me,maybe something for you to try,what do you have to loose...nada my friend..nada.But do it whith INTESION,from your heart or it will NOT work for sure.

Other then this Mr.Stubborni whish that you contact your Doctor again and check that everything is proceeding as it should.Do a full Medical Checkup..so you can try and calm yourself down..if the checkup tells you that you need to maybe alter something in your lifestyle,do it.And most of all...BE PATIENCE...babystepping..your friend in pain...With love...

Takin it easy

Hi All,

I said I would try to take a step back, and take it easy...Blah I really havnt done that. It can be hard to. Yet I played some cards recently, and had a decent result. Amazingly that has helped to soothe my mind for a little bit. My body hated me for sitting for so long, but my mind is happy. It has been a long road, and no end in sight fir me right now. Yet I feel a bit of hope. Sometimes it can be downright depressing to as I'd say live in prison. When you have a serious issue like I, and others do with your body. It feels like your trapped inside yourself. I know there are those that have it worse than me. I pray for them, and my heart goes out to them. My body may be broken, but I thank MNS. As well as my friends here for keeping my mind away from the bad, and the support I've seen. Even words of encouragement from those I don't know to well. That is a reason I love this place, and why
MNS forums are a world apart from any other...Ns

Dear noshow

Hi There , My Friend
I Got Your P.M And I Can Feel , Through Your Words , Of Your Desperation To Regain Yourself To When You Were Well , And Happy.
Everyone Going Through What You Are Enduring ( Including Myself ) Has Different Coping Mechanisms , Which Are There ; I Promise You They Are
I Thought Of Writing back To You Via P.M , But Due To Energy Management I Hope You Take This As A Personal Letter To Yourself , And Anyone Else Out There Suffering.
Having Faith , And Hope Are So Important In Accepting And Adapting To Your Condition.
There Are Hundreds , If Not Thousands Who Have Followed Your Plight And I Know Every Member Here Is Rallying For Your Recovery.
I Hope You Find Healthy Distractions And With rb And BLB And Everyone Else Rooting For You , Myself Especially
Things Will Get Better Over Time , And We Really Do Have All The Time In The World . Whatever Time Is , Lol
I'm Terrible With PM'ing ; Sometimes Some Folk Go Looking For My Achilles Heel
Lifes Too Short My Friend ; I've Just Hooked Up With A Couple Of Growers Who First Taught Me How To Grow In 1983 ( You Would'nt Believe Who's Been In My Victoria Basement ) And Apart from Sharing Their Knowledge With Me On The A1-A3 Vancouver Clone
They're Also Coming To Visit Me En Route To Holland
1986 Was The Last Time I Saw Them
I Guess I Can Thank Facebook For Something , I Suppose

Noshow ; Set Small Goals , And Take Small Steps And Pace Yourself
Remember YOU'RE WORTH IT
Y.A.N.A ; You Are Never Alone
Joe

Hi Joe

Joe I appreciate the kind words. I have been greatful for the friends here, and all mns has done for me. I am sure at some point you have felt like hope was lost. Only to rebound, and feel better. Today is a day I feel down, but yet not too bad. WHen I wrote what I did. I meant it, and still do. I can see many things going awry, and no control over the outcome. It is sad, but if that is what is to be. Then that is what is to be. For now I feel it is best to focus on my recovery, and deal with what life throws my way as it happens.
I know there will be tough, and rough times ahead still. Yet I feel even the bad days. I have many friends here that will help me. I can't even begin to describe all the offers of help I've had. It is really humbling to know that others care for you enough to do so. Joe thanks for getting back to me. I had been wondering if I had just layed too much on you. I appreciate it, and am glad to hear your getting to see some old friends. I hope all goes well for you, and you have as pain free a day as possible....Ns

Weebles Wobble But They Don't Fall Down

noshow said:

Joe I appreciate the kind words. I have been greatful for the friends here, and all mns has done for me. I am sure at some point you have felt like hope was lost. Only to rebound, and feel better. Today is a day I feel down, but yet not too bad. WHen I wrote what I did. I meant it, and still do. I can see many things going awry, and no control over the outcome. It is sad, but if that is what is to be. Then that is what is to be. For now I feel it is best to focus on my recovery, and deal with what life throws my way as it happens.
I know there will be tough, and rough times ahead still. Yet I feel even the bad days. I have many friends here that will help me. I can't even begin to describe all the offers of help I've had. It is really humbling to know that others care for you enough to do so. Joe thanks for getting back to me. I had been wondering if I had just layed too much on you. I appreciate it, and am glad to hear your getting to see some old friends. I hope all goes well for you, and you have as pain free a day as possible....Ns

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Morning Buddy Aint We A Couple Of Yo-Yo's
Take Advantage Of Your Friends Help ( It Makes Them Feel Better )
Don't Fall For False Promises Though
OnlyAssholes Can Lay Too Much On Me
You Are My Friend And Sometimes I Feel Better From Reading Your Posts
I Know I Am Not Alone ( Thank You )
Anytime noshow ; But As I Said , My P.M Reply's Are Slow In Coming
Joe

no worries

Joe no worries friend. Take your time. Don't respond if yu don't feel like it, or well enough. I myself right now have all the time in the world. I do hope at times to be a slight comical, and even if not. I wish that anythign I post does help. I am glad in some lil way it has. If only one person has been served a lil info, and been helped. Then I am happy. See Joe as you know. Many people give out info, and I bless them for that. Yet many of them have no idea what it is like to be in this type of condition, or shape. Yet I can say this. I have made another wonderful friend here at mns. Since this message was done in pm. I will have to decline to name them, or even post any info about the pm. What I can say is this. They are helping me to see what my issues are in a different sort of light. To not feel dorry for myself, and do what I need to, because in most cases. I agree no one else will do it for you. So if that friend is reading this. Thank You, and also...Thank You Joe, and everyone else that has been helping with the kind words, and their thoughts to help me.

I honestly think this is what Shanti envisioned when he thought of this website. Not just about the genetics, but a fellow man helping out others with troubles. Even if non-cannabis related. I don't speak for Shanti, and I could be wrong, but I think this time I am on the mark. So I therefore am greatful for this place...Ns

hi again

Hi All,

In this ongoing saga...I had mentioned that I had a bad week or so. Well I kind of felt funny last night. Woke up today feeling like I did that week. Just like I went out, and drank myself into oblivion. Anyone out there with similar issues. Maybe taking opiate meds? Experiance this troubles? I did get a new med last at DR's. It was for nerve pain related issues. ANy ideas?...Ns

The Liver Is An Incredible Organ; Don't Ruin It

Hi It Me , Yellowman
You Will Never Find Comfort By Drinking Away Your Problems , Even If It's A Now And Then Pastime ( Binge Drinkers Fare Worse Than Seasoned Drinkers)
Getting Bladdered Only Puts Stress On Your Liver And Believe Me You Do Not Want To Get Cirrosis ( Scarring) Of The Liver
I Think I Mentioned Yesterday To Adopt A Distraction ( Read A Book By Carlos Castenada ( A Yaquii Way Of Knowledge, Or Mr Nice , Or Senor Nice )
And Never Forget These Two Quotes " No Pain , No Gain " And " Use It , Or Lose It ")
I've Been On One Pill Or Another Since 1989 And Let Me tell You None Of Them Work Anymore ( Or I Cannot Feel Them Working )
I Bought Some Ridiculously Expensive Pot The Other Day ( Armaggedon - Very Nice )
What A Difference ( Instant Relaxation And Smily Via Volcano )
noshow ; Alcohol Is A Depressant ; And You Would Make Me Very Happy If You Resisted That Next Drink
Write A Journal And Read Once A Week
And Have A Direction Chosen , And Go In That Direction
If You Come To A Large Pothole On Your Journey , Walk Around It And Carry Onwards
Have A Nice Day My Friend
Joe

JPK,i think noshow said that he felt like that he had be bingedrinking..but if i understod noshow right he did NOT drink anything at all.

I have to fighr thru a kineystone attack today..backpain ANY day..but kindeystone attacks are THE PAIN...well got so meds.and i'm drikning water like a camel in Sahara..

So to noshow i just want to say,your like a brother to me now and i care about you like a brother..you are as always in my prayers..take care and don't sit and play poker..THAT'S NOT WHAT THE DOCTOR ORDER..the word is MODERATION and REHAB..okey....and maybe a joint to relax your body and mind

Joe

Hi Joe,

I appreciate your concern, but Blb is correct. I no longer drink, but in my youth. I used to a good bit. It has been four years. Well unless you count that one beer. It is just that I wake up feeling like I had been when I'd go out all night, and get drunk. I am wondering if it is any meds I take?, or something else...Ns I do quite a few puzzle books, and word searches. I like them alot...Ns

BlB,

But I love poker...Been doing ok. Does that not count? I played one more after I said I'd quit,and it does take a toll. I will try to stop, but with so much free time. It isn't easy. I hope your pains you mention work themselvesout. Either that, or you will likely make the water levelin the ocean's rise again...lol. I hope your well...Ns

Are all of you old buggers like me 50+?
I've got a spondylosis L5/S1. Slipped forward about half an inch and severely degenerated discs above and below. The disks in my neck are bone on bone and wings on some vertabrae have dissapeared. Doc said, don't worry you neck can get any worse!
I can't sleep with my head in the wrong position or the discs slide around and I wake up vomiting with migrain. I take 240mg codiene per day in two doses, morning and night, otherwise it doesn't help at all.
I smoke a lot. This is the first serious winge i've had in quite a while.
N.

Hi All

well you are all old buggers and deserve to whine now and again...especially if you feel better from doing it!

Anyhow got something coming out for the pain management people...

If you follow anything about the medical marijuana concept and how the name is bounded around nowadays you would think that all cannabis is a long lost medicine for all ailments. But what actually constitutes a strain to be medical? Considering the varietals of indica and sativa are not even recognised in any botanical forum to date, in categorization medical mj is a whole new concept of 4D baseball...

However I have been a part of a small active group of breeders and scientists trying to come up with a seed for the home grower that could be classified as this.We will come out with in in 6 weeks both regular and femminized versions and MNS will be affiliating itself with another seed company who contributed a large proportion of the work to almost complete a 2 year project. We are called the CBD crew and more than this I can not say at this moment until all things are ready. But I believe with a little more help from the community here we will define the constraints for a strain to medical.

Stay tuned all the best Sb

hi

Nevil I know we've talked, and you mentioned your issues. That is harsh to hear, and I feel your pain friend. My neck isn't as bad as your it seems, but I do have issues in my c-spine. Compression with no herniations, and when it hits me. It is the worst headahce as you know. I've been hospitalized several times for them. I can't stand any noise. Complete silence is too loud. Any...I mean any light is too much. Movement of any sort makes it worse. Any of these conditions in my headaches are violated. I am instantly puking. Which brings me to how well I feel after puking. Yeah that is so much fun(sarcasm). Nevil I truly hope you get some relief for it. It is not good times when feeling like that. Be well friend.

As for my back. Lumbar spine in last six months I've had two fusion surgeries. Dr mentioned the first one made the second one rupture. I have two other herniations in the lumbar area. Yet the thing that bothers me most. Is the degenerative disc issues. I have all but two discs in my back in heavy/severe degeneration/dessication. Why two discs not affected? I'd like to know it is odd, but what is is. My worries are this. It was expected that a second disc would rupture bad causing surgery, but the one expected to was two levels above the original. So the second one that ruptured was not the one expected to do so. My OG surgery was on the L4-5. The L2-3 was bad, but the L3-4 was the one that went. Now as I understand These surgeries weaken the areas around. So how long until this one goes? Then the L1-2 is ruptured. How long before that one goes if the other is bad? I just don't see a bright future. Yet mns, and Shani. My friends here have been able to light a candle I'll call hope. Many kind words. Offers, and I can say I feel the Love. So thank you all...Ns

P.S. Btw I am not 50, but say the range of 37 is more like it. So these issues are not unheard of, but not quite normal for someone my age...Ns

Nice to hear of your positive work Shanti and the CBD crew.. Keep us updated mate.. Its always nice to hear of things when they are looking forwards..